Mountah Ash's Musings

The musings of a chronically ill girl named after a tree.

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Wednesday, May 18, 2011

A revelation (of something I should have known before)

The other day, I was talking to my friend, and we started talking about God's love for us. I started crying. Not necessarily with sadness, joy, or shame. More a combination of all of them.

Sometimes it is just so easy to forget how much He loves us. I mean, He sent His ONLY son to die for us! When we are so sinful, and have made so many mistakes. How in the world is it so easy for us to forget that? You would not think it would be so easy, and yet, it is.
I always tell myself "Oh I am gonna start reading my Bible more" But then something comes up that seems more important at the time. Or, maybe something like "I really need to stop doing ______" or "I really need to start doing _____"

For me, I said that I really needed to start controlling my temper. Of course, that was failing. Why was it failing?
Because I was trying to do it on my own.
I can just imagine God looking down and going "If you just ask me for help...I am right here you know..." And that makes me laugh. I mean, He loves us more than we could even begin to imagine, and here I am, trying to do things on my own. I suppose that is my stubbornness and love for doing things on my own. However, there are some things that I really cant do on my own. When I am depressed, sometimes it is harder to remember His love. But when I do remember it, it is easier to come out of my depression. Much easier.

Wow...I did not intend this post to be that long, and yet I could go on for a much longer time. Thanks for reading.